a.k.a. Little L

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Lemonade and Chocolate

Last night, Cess & I stopped at the market where Jasper had been found. I bought a Mikes Hard Lemonade and a Hershey bar. They were favorites and one of the few things he would ask for.

We shared some of the drink and a few squares of chocolate.

We left the rest for him.

I can’t believe it’s already been a year since he passed.

Usually, when someone close to me passes, I actively don’t look at the calendar. I want to remember them, but I don’t want to focus on their passing. That’s been my thinking, at least.

But, for the past few weeks, even though I wasn’t trying to think about the upcoming date, it still popped into my mind.

I didn’t take the day off work, because I was afraid I’d mope around all day and feel sad.

I was holding up Ok, until I put the can down at his final resting place. I miss him so much and it’s still a huge hole in my life.

Jasper on the 4th of July, showing his shoes, cuffs and fireworks.